tough times...

(i've been keeping this entry for some time... think it's time to let it out ba...)

Recently (for the past month especially), I've many things to do and settled, sometimes, I'll wonder to myself how can i possibly finish all these things?!

All these things need to be done before the new semester starts, and I'm still stuck here... I can't prepare for the new semester, can't settle myself down, can't relax and take a good rest before I need to "chiong" again...

Sometimes, I do wonder whether others can understand anot, the stress that I'm going through. With all the issues at hand, I still need to be mindful of my actions and speech, because I scare that I'll hurt the ones who are beside me...

Somtimes, I really hope that I dun hav to care about so many things and just go ahead and keep myself in a cave and enjoy the peace and solace which I may be able to find there.

All I can ask for... is that the loves one beside me can try to understand me and listen to me and I'll try be understanding of course... sometimes, it's not because I don't care, it's just that i'm too tired already... I'm a human being, who needs encouragements at times and support also.... being strong or acting strong is too tiring le..... I've tried to stay as positive as possible in as many situations as possible, think maybe it's due to my defilements ba...

You gave me strength.. i nid strength... But...
Can I have some time in settling? please don't forsake me and have faith in me...