mixed feelings...

It've been some time since the last the post. Many things took place during this time...

- moved to school hostel (RVR)

- some happenings at home (mom, bro, grandmom...)

- stepping down from the mc

- having "misundersatndings" with frens (don't understand how come it've become like that)

- built some bonds that I've never been able to last time

- rushing prof works (still doing :( )

- consolidating thots

- settling down in a new environment

Now i know that it's really not easy to settle in a new environment alone. Sometimes, the feeling of loneliness could caught me off guarded. Wanna say many thanks to my fren who accompany me during that 1st few weeks. She really helped me alot.

Recently, there are some stuffs that I dun really understand how it've turned out to be liked that. I've wondered whether I've done something towards somebody unmindfully and created an opening for misunderstanding.

Things in life are really ever-changing...

Now you see this, now you don't. Things happened that caught you unaware, until you can see that something is not very right. People, events could changed just due to a mere difference in ideologies and suggestions. Who's rite and wrong in the end? No one, people would just get hurt in the end without proper understanding about each other.

Having mixed feelngs before and after stepping down. Really doesn't know what to make out of them. It seems like there's no place to reconcile them.