~Smiles~ ^^

~smiles ^^

Everyday is a special and unique one, you'll never know what will happen each day.
Sometimes, we can make a great difference just by moving a small step forward.
By stepping out of our comfort zones,
we can see a total whole new world!

If you wanna do something, JUST DO IT!
Of coz after given some thoughts about it 1st (wouldn't wanna make a big mistake instead)
Just dun go round and round in circle or just sit on the fence always :P

Recently, I'm thinking... (agAin... lol)
It's easier said than done.
Well, I just wanna remind myself that I should greet everyday with gratitude and smiles ^^
regardless of any good and bad events happening around me.
Able to wake up everyday, it's already a great blessing!

Just ImaGine what one can do in one siNgLe day!! (can be quite amAziNg yo)

By treasuring each day, every moments are just as important and they can flash through in seconds without one's notice... Nothing will stay constant, the bad things too...

WeLL, treat each day as a new beginning,
maybe the most unexpected things may just pop out yo! haha..
Are you ready for the unpredictable cHallEnges??

Get Ready,
BE positive,
Jia yOu everyone ^^ (still mugging hard for exams....)

~smiles ^^

Missing someone ?!

I'm missing someone, especially recently...

I
miss all the times that we've together,
miss your 'branded' smiles,
miss the breakfasts, lunches and dinners,
miss everything...

Someone once told me that missing has two types,
one is to miss with positive feelings - longing,
another which bring upon some negative feeling - obsession.

Which type am I in??

Haha, both are undesirable emotions though.

Many a times, I've asked myself why do I feel this way...
But the conclusions varies and I can't really find an answer to that.

::
Today, just today...
Suddenly, a thought came to me,
is it 'ego' that makes me unable to let go?
I can't bear the thought that 'it' is gone just like that?
- only given such a short period of time which I can't even have the chance to espress what I really feel and think to you....
- i'm just unable to accept the truth that 'this' can't work?
- or is it otherwise??

Should I have a serious talk with you?
Let you know what's on my mind,
bridging the broken rapport between us,
allowing understanding to flow seamlessly between us...

I wanna tell you how i feel so badly, yet i'm held back by fears of rejection and doubts.
::

Exams are coming and I've kept reminding myself of that, trying to stay at ease and calm, focusing on my revision.
But in vain...

Nevermind, I'll try again and harder this time,
and maybe this time,
this time,
'it' will pass on,
and I'll be able to move forward with bright smiles greeting every new day!!

Am I being silly here, well, haha, maybe lo...
I'm still stuck with ignorance.. (help me, think i gonna help myself yah..)


-- drowning now --



-- floating soon --



"~ Permanence of Impermanence ~"
"~ All are dependence arising ~"


Gonna reflect and contemplate... ...



(p.s. coz i noe the presence of blog is unknown to you, so at least i'm free to express here, heez :P)

Being Thankful *.*

Heez.. Here're few cents of my thought after some reflections lately..

::
I'm thankful for all the things that i've access to.
I sought not the possesion of them,
but to be able to use them to benefit oneself and others.

I'm thankful for the people around me,
those who guides and helps me along the way,
those who hurts and critises me,
those who loves and pampers me,
and those who put me down.
Not taking for granted for the people around me,
treasure them and I would treasure myself and my loved ones,
for everyone has helped me in one way or another without them realising it.

I'm thankful to be able to learn the Dharma,
may I have the good conditions to realise the true teachings of the Dharma,
may I not have wrong views and assume that they're correct.
May all be able to benefit from the Dharma.
May all be well and happy ^^
::

Library venture!!

Haha, guess where i've been studying for the pass few days??
It's the Dharma Library in a temple(KMS) !! Hee, the place is really a great place for people to mug or jux to relax and chill out..
And wow, the remarkable book collections there has proved to be an eye-opener for me.. Dharma books here I come ~~

The whole atmosphere is really peaceful and there's an air of Tranquility around. In there, you can discard all your worries and doubts and focus on your reading and revision. It has been a long time since I've the chance to study whole-heartedly and without a stray thought in my mind for quite awhile. Hmm, I hope the revision is gd and I'm able to perform in my coming exams..

Wah, 6 modules and all those CCA works are really tough to manage cohesively. But, I'll do my best though..

While in the library studying, i've the chance to observe how my mind works yo. When there are no distractions, one can study well. While there are distractions, one can't help but to stray to the temptations available.
I'm really thankful that i can study in such a condusive environment and may all students do well in the exams with the right understanding. =)

Sometimes, I do wonder how come i'm accessible to such good conditions compared to many people, and just can't stop reminding myself not to take things for granted and be thankful for what we have at all times.

While studying, my senior PH was asking whether to volunteer at the library, den I said:"Sure!". A fleeting conversation between us. To our surprise towards the closing time of the library, after PH asked the librarian some questions, the library asked whether we wanna help as library volunteers!! Wow, it's so amazing, haha..
Of coz,we agreed to help put after our exams and the Dharma camp. It'll be a great learning experience to help out in the library!

Moreover, PH is so nice and helped me to borrow a book <<心经 - 阿含经入门>> from the library! As I've been wanting to learn more about 心经, but haven't apply the library card yet, and here's my precious chance.. (smiling~)

Thank you PH, hehez...

Dare to let go...

Do you dare to list out all your attachments on a piece of paper?
If not, why not? Are you TOO attached?

Do you dare to find the causes of each of your attachments?
If not, why not? Are you TOO attached?

Do you dare to imagine the peace without your attachments?
If not, why not? Are you TOO attached?

Do you date to walk the path of letting go of your attachemnts?
If not, why not? Are you TOO attached?


:: adapted from "The Daily Enlightenment 1" ::

someone out there?!

Wow, exams is just around the corner and all those thoughts start to flush into my mind!!
What's happening? Why do it comeback again after I've thoought that it has subsided? Hmm, maybe I haven really gotteb over with it yet..hmm..

After much efforts and many heart-pinching moments, I thought I can finally let it go, but... I Still cAn'T. After some reflection, i thot that maybe it's because im a cowardy person, someone who dun dare to face the music, haha.. Well, I did try to do what I can and should not be too harse on myself ba. Missing someone is indeed a tough chore, and only you yourself know how hard it really is..

:: All things are empty in nature, why should we chase after things that are ever changing, that we can't even grab hold of and bring sufferings to ourselves? ::

:: There's only one thing wrong with you~~
you can be truly happy~~
but you do not want to be... badly enough. ::

"How good it'll be that there's people out there who can really understand you and accept you as who you really are," remarked K.

Yah, i agree.

In this society, almost everyone is looking on the superficial level and do not dare to look further and deeper. They are afraid that they would not be able to accept what they've discovered when they really looked into it. Hmm, when we asked that from others, can we really do the same for others?? When we look at others, can we picture ourselves in their shoes? "Why are some people so stubborn?" You may ask sometimes, aren't we like that too, haha..

Why don't we let our expectations a break and enjoy what we have?

"I want a TIME-OUT!!"